I've reached a point I've been to before, but am not fond of revisiting. However, my returns are inevitable. I am human, after all. The phenomenon I'm talking about is called diabetic burnout. This happens when a person managing type 1 diabetes is simply tired of the attention it requires.
I understand it may be hard for others to relate to, especially for people who are close to me, who often don't recognize the 24/7 treatment I'm providing to myself. Like parenting, it's not a job, but it's part of who you are.
Parents can't stop caring for their children as they're growing up, but I'm sure most parents could relate to wanting to for a little while, and, though I have no experience in parenting, I don't think it's shameful wanting to step away for a few moments. It's natural to feel overwhelmed every so often.
Of course, in these situations, I imagine you would be able to take a walk, or a short nap to step away. This applies to parenting and managing diabetes. Like managing diabetes, the return to managing your children is inevitable. However, diabetes doesn't grow up and start caring for itself. Diabetes is the "Tuck Everlasting" inside of you that you carry with you, if you are lucky enough to age. Unfortunately, diabetes doesn't look as handsome or as fun as Jonathan Jackson's 'Tuck,' circa 2002.
Until there is none, until there is a cure, there is more diabetes everyday. Sometimes it's unpredictable, and sometimes it's on your side, and most days you wish it wasn't inside, but you get through and thank God that you're able to manage it as well.